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Haven't been blogging for a while... this dream left me an uncomfortable weird feeling...

• I was back at my granny's previous home... chatting with one of my best fren on the Internet. Skies where still dark then. I went onto the balcony... the usual forest hill I have always looked over by this very balcony.
• There were blue and green fireflies... too many to count and how beautiful they are. I took my camera and started snapping hoping that I would be able to get clear photos of them. I went back to my computer to inform my pal of it.
  The fireflies slowly disappeared and something emerge from above the forest line. Night was turning into day.
• I was stunned by this sight. A blue crucifix on a square like pattern background appeared, rising from behind the hill. I took my camera and started snapping and I could not comprehend what was going on.
• A sense of fear, coupled with amusement came over me as I went bk to my computer hoping to send photos of what I have taken to my pal.
• Before I could do that, giant metal(probably brass as they looked like giant statues on the loose) cherubs without wings walked out from the cross. Taller then most of the flats around me. I have no idea what was happening but a sense of fear and amazement was in me. I was fearing for my safely and my granny was with me doing her morning chores.
• I went into the kitchen only to find my granny drying out the clothes. I noticed a Cherub staring from afar, smaller than the rest I've seen walking through the estate.
• I have no idea if my granny noticed but I tried to get away from the window. Only to realise that there were human size Cherub(which were still huge) entering the home through the balcony.
• I hid from them and fear for what they might do to us. 3 of them(different sizes), walked into my granny's room and came out. Walking and flying away from our balcony. I rushed to close and lock the glass doors of the balcony and draw the curtains. Wanting to do the same for all the windows.
• I cant help but warn my uncle of wats going on as he was a little off... and a delinquent of the family. I noticed that he had yellow hairs on his face which I didn't bother at that time. He was still asleep and I woke up him wanting to tell him wat is going on calmly.
• After speaking to him briefly I notice that there are other being entering through the balcony despite close doors, I have no idea wat was going on and it scares me. I tried closing the room door calmly hoping whatever it is wont notice us. I kept closing it but it seems like the door had 2 glass layers and 1 wood layer which freaked me out a little.
• After closing the door, I feared for my granny's safety, I didn't know wat to do and I hope that she was safe somehow and continued explaining the situation to my uncle. There was someone else in his room but I cant recall who.
  

I woke up at this pointat 5am. My comforter was off me... laying on my back with my arms and legs stretched out. This to me... was a weird position as I looked as if I was laying on the ground in a relaxed position.
And here I am... blogging my experience. Slowly feeling tired again as I had probably only 5 hours of sleep... pardon for the weird english it's just I'm just not in a right mind to blog.

I hope I wont have any more disturbing dreams once I get back into bed...

Watching me from above

I havent been writing about my dreams anymore as too many things have been going on. And the most recent dream manage to put me through fear and ending in tears when I woke.
God is watching over me... please guide me through this period... teach me the right words. Guide me to the right path.
Give me strength and courage... and always walking by my side. You have created many things for me, happy and sad...
Allow me to move on... pls Father...

Thanks to all who are and always have been praying for me...

dream180906

This dream feels unsettling... Its not a nightmare, but it felt unsettling because it felt too real.

• I was to go to a facial or slimming thing... not idea. As my mom or fren gave me smth.
• I was told that the shop should be open during the weekend. So I went in the morning.
• Somehow I bumped into my Grandma. At the same shopping centre.
• I wondered why would she wanna come to Cathay. (in real life, I havent been to tat new renovated shopping centre as yet)
• I tried to look for the shop on the 2nd and 3rd levels.
• However none of the shops were open and it was BLOODY DARK! Coz the lights were not turned on apart from Level 1. On the 3rd level there was a man near the escalator repairing the lights.
• The only shop that was probably opened was a Lan shop on the 3rd level. The rest just seemed closed. Yet I do see a little light coming from inside some of the shops with people inside.
• I cant find my shop still and I was having a very hard time looking for it without the lights. so I went back down to level one where all the fast food restaurants are.
• I told my grandma who was waiting downstairs tat I wanna have Burger King. Coz I was told the breakfast was realli good.
• Unfortunately... it was most likely 11 by then... as they changed it to a lunch menu. And surprising enough, they were serving KFC as well. It's like they were both under the same company now.
• I asked the guy at the counter wat they have left. It seems like scrambled egges with meat. The guy was pretty irritating as he didnt give me a direct ans. I just wanna noe if theres beef inside but he gave me some sickening reply.
• So I ordered 2 OR chicken thigh. Thinking to myself... damn... I will get fat again. How many times have I eaten fried chicken this week.(in real life, the last time I had it was last week. But I had it twice last week)
• I went bk to my seat and my Grandma was oredi eating... the chairs where weird and they were kids' chairs stacked up. I had to change it to the adult chair in the end.
  
• I went bk to get a fork and knife. TIME AND TIME again, the guy gave me the wrong stuff... like a fork and spoon. I was quite irritated as I wondered if he did it on purpose.
• When I finally got my knife, I went back to my seat.

Then I woke up in real life too.
It seems like a very normal dream. But it felt too real. the escalator... How my eyes felt searchin for things in the dark. The drinks... which I had a mouthful of.
The dream isnt tat weird... the feeling after this dream was!

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Am I ready to lose...
Is there anything really there... or am I losing precious emotions...

I'm almost at the tip of getting ready to lose wat I have... it wont happen till it does...
And I'm not joyous about it...

God guide me... pls...

dream160906

Another confused segmented dream...

• I was told by a friend that we are going to a country... cant remember wat it was. But it starts with P. However, I left for the Airport 1st. And left... I got a little lost and didnt noe why I had left 1st. I was told that it was only a 2 hour journey... so I was a little relieved.
• I was in the plane... it felt weird... coz it was huge. And my friend was surpose to be the pilot. But I have no idea if I was on the right plane.
• I could see what is going on outside by the front. It was raining.
• The plane seems to be flying extrem low... and seems like I was on the top deck. Where I could practically see everything and feel the wind.
• A lady told me to look to my left... and there I could see the sun rising from behind the clouds... it was BEAUTIFUL... but strangely enough. I see other planets as well. Probably one of the is the Moon.
• I saw a dolphin farm... it was strange. But the dolphins seems happy and they were jumping around.
• Flew over the sea... and ice... and everything was bright.

Next... I have no idea wat happen... I probably woke up and went back to sleep again.
The next thing I know... I was travelling with my parents. I have no idea where we were going. We travelled light and we were in a food court with lots of food. With mostly Japanese like food. Very strange. And we were wondering if we had changed enough money.

• The next thing I knew. I was in a plane again. No idea where I'm heading to. I seem to be at the front of the plane. I could see the plane flying through a bridge. And I was wondering WHY DOES THE PILOT HAS TO DO TAT! When he could fly above it which was much safer.
  
• Then he flew out and above...
  
• I could see a river... or sea... and a city... with skyscrapers. It looks almost like Singapore... Brisbane... US... whichever... I was clueless.
• Then I saw the Sydney Opera house. It was under construction thou.
• And I tot to myself... I'm on Sydney!
• The plane flew back and to the airport... I was pretty excited! As I feel close to him...
• I smsed him to tell him I was in Sydney.

And I woke up...

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Better sweet feelings linger...
Am I too strong a lady... is knowing wat I wan posing a threat...?
They hold your hand... u refused coz u panicked... then when u decide to give it a try a day later... he stays away...
Saying tat he's afraid he cant keep up with you and that smth happen and he doesnt wanna take advantage of u. That he is in debts... and he cant give tat security... tat he is a carefree person and yer serious... That we are in 2 different worlds(tat sounds sickeningly familiar)...
He has to live by the day and you have plans...
This is the 2nd time I hear this... from 2 similiar beings... and probably the kindda guy who cld give me happiness emotionally but didnt dare to come forth...

The onli difference is... he actually likes me... unlike the one before.

I guess God has his plans again...
May he set another path for me... and hopefully... it's a oath that suits me... as there are probably no rite or wrongs to certain paths.

I wont forget that nite... it was sweet... simple... that warm feeling. Nothing happen... just those sweet feelings I once lost.

I could at least thank God for that... As much as I pray for the best...

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I was feelin abit confused...

• It was late at nite, almost 1am... and I was taking a cab rushin to meet Leon. The cabby overshot and I was kindda pissed esp. when it did not drop me off a carb... I got off when he was trying to do a U-turn.
• The fare cost $10.60, but I gave him $10.50.
• I was walking along a pavement... it felt realli nostalgic. From my point of view... the lane together with the willow trees by the side, where in sepia. It was 1am... but it felt like it was around 7pm... with a gloomy feel.
  
• I got to an area which I saw some strange sculptures. Made of Chains and wheels. Basically metal sculptures. And some children were playing amongst the sculptures.
• Some chains seems to be stretch out upwards with no surport. I was told these sculptures were held on by supernatural forces. I was abit spooked.
• I finally met up with Leon. I was surpose to be in his home in this dream. Thou I know he doesnt live in a Semi-D to begin with.
  
• Its a VERY UNIQUE house. The hall could actually rotate! To certain positions... u will get an excellent view of the scenary outside.
  
• I was lookin at a mirror... when all a sudden... he picked me up and carried me. I kept laughin and asked him to put me down as I was too heavy for him.
• I was surpose to go to work... but I was LATE for work... it was oredi 9am+ and I wanted to call in sick.

I woke up... almost late for work. Thank God I wasnt.

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... Why is it so difficult to know someone sincerely...
Would you rather have that probably temporary Happiness and cherish that moment... until your final decision to choose when the time comes... or would u rather loose everything all together and go back to a probably unstable situation... and leave a sweet memory for that person when u leave...

Just holding hands for a sec made me feel so bad... yet a tinch of excitment... thou letting go within a few seconds... when challenged again... I refused...
But if we do go out again... I was prewarned that a kiss might follow in de end...

Why does it have to be so...!!! Why cant it be simple...

TORN!!!! TORN!!! TORN!!! Why cant I just know that someone better without these "sweetness"...

Does this phrase... "if you dun try, you wont know" sound familiar to you...
I have no idea where he got it from... or whether have I said this to him ever... but its a phrase commonly used by me...
Talking bout havin your own words against u...